Sunday, July 14, 2013

AnotherYear Log 18 - Restoration

I took a very long walk after the last update. I walked for hours, down my street, down the trails near my house. Trails I hadn't walked down in eight years. He was not there. Clearly he kept good on his promise to leave me be... why? Love? Compassion? A sense of understanding, of familiarity with what I am... who I am? I'll probably never know. I probably couldn't begin to fathom it. But I think I might be one step closer to understanding now.

After all... we are the same species.

~Shadows

[8:36:08 PM] Brahian: que pasa?
[8:36:30 PM] DarkShadows: ...
[8:36:39 PM] The Jazz: Alright
[8:36:48 PM] The Jazz: people here's the sitch
[8:36:59 PM] DarkShadows: ...
[8:36:59 PM] The Jazz: Dark is a tulpa and the world is fucked
[8:37:08 PM] Brahian: D:
[8:37:20 PM] DarkShadows: ... why would anyone...
[8:37:25 PM] DarkShadows: want someone as unremarkable as me
[8:37:27 PM] DarkShadows: ... to exist?
[8:37:49 PM] The Jazz: Your selfesteem issues aside I dont know why Willow created you.
[8:37:59 PM] The Jazz: Actually this makes us kind of siblings
[8:38:08 PM] The Jazz: since without willow I wouldnt exist either
[8:38:20 PM] DarkShadows: ... if she stopped wanting me to exist I'd die.
[8:38:36 PM] The Jazz: Yes, sis but the thing is I doubt she will
[8:38:41 PM] The Jazz: unless you provoke her
[8:38:50 PM] DarkShadows: ... Or unless she is killed herself somehow.
[8:39:00 PM] DarkShadows: ... I want to live.
[8:39:16 PM] DarkShadows: But hell, I guess I'm not even alive... am I?
[8:39:23 PM] DarkShadows: You know what else isn't fucking alive, Jazz?
[8:39:32 PM] DarkShadows: Viruses. I'm a fucking *virus*.
[8:39:35 PM] DarkShadows: I'm a *meme*.
[8:39:41 PM] DarkShadows: You know what people do to viruses?
[8:39:48 PM] DarkShadows: Destroy them. Cast them out.
[8:39:53 PM] The Jazz: Sis, its going to be ok
[8:39:58 PM] The Jazz: I promise
[8:40:06 PM] DarkShadows: Nothing is 'okay' about any of this!
[8:40:18 PM] Brahian: Well some viruses aren't
[8:40:20 PM] DarkShadows: YOU didn't just find out you're not a *human fucking being*
[8:40:34 PM] DarkShadows: YOU didn't live a fucking lie for 21 years
[8:40:39 PM] DarkShadows: and now it comes the fuck out.
[8:40:54 PM] Brahian: Some vaccinations have viruses in them, it's how they make you immune to them
[8:41:28 PM] DarkShadows: And if she dies, *I fucking die*.
[8:41:43 PM] DarkShadows: ... you know who the Slenderman thinks "God's Wife" is?
[8:41:45 PM] DarkShadows: Willow.
[8:41:59 PM] DarkShadows: ... Which means he has to murder her, which means *I am going to fucking die*
[8:42:02 PM] The Jazz: [8:39 PM] DarkShadows:

<<< YOU didn't just find out you're not a *human fucking being*
YOU didn't live a fucking lie for 21 years
and now it comes the fuck out.really, do you think I just knew my entire life I was a sentimental. No, I didn't I went through the same thing you just did and tried to make the best of it. I quit whining and tried to just live with who I am, thats what you should do.
[8:42:37 PM] The Jazz: Ok, God's wife aside or not there are always alternative solutions.
[8:42:37 PM] Brahian: Jazz...
[8:42:46 PM] DarkShadows: ...
[8:42:51 PM] Brahian: Do you hide your sorrow behind all those jokes?
[8:42:53 PM] Brahian: D:
[8:42:56 PM] The Jazz: kind of
[8:42:56 PM | Edited 8:43:01 PM] DarkShadows: ... you make it sound *so fucking easy*
[8:43:03 PM] The Jazz: it isnt I know
[8:43:03 PM] Brahian: D::::
[8:43:26 PM] The Jazz: The thing is, the problem is her ability to bend reality.
[8:43:30 PM] The Jazz: if we take that from her
[8:43:31 PM] The Jazz: and only that
[8:43:37 PM] The Jazz: then you'll still live
[8:43:42 PM] The Jazz: and will continue to live
[8:43:49 PM] DarkShadows: ...
[8:43:54 PM] DarkShadows: He has to take it from her.
[8:44:02 PM] The Jazz: yes
[8:44:20 PM] DarkShadows: ... Dear God. Is... is that why he... why he was so interested in me this whole damn time...?
[8:44:31 PM] DarkShadows: ...
[8:44:40 PM] DarkShadows: Because... because I'm *not* human?
[8:44:48 PM] The Jazz: perhaps
[8:53:49 PM] The Jazz: Sis
[8:53:52 PM] The Jazz: are you ok?
[8:54:00 PM] DarkShadows: ... no
[8:54:11 PM] DarkShadows: I said it before, there's nothing okay about any of this.
[8:54:55 PM] DarkShadows: ... But... if I made Lovi by accident... and Willow created me by accident... then maybe there's a reason I myself can create tulpas.
[8:55:20 PM] DarkShadows: ... that... that can't just ahve fallen out of the blue. there's stats involved with everything, however improbable...
[8:55:28 PM] DarkShadows: yes, believe that. numbers cannot lie.
[8:55:32 PM] DarkShadows: Everything is possible.
[8:55:36 PM] The Jazz: I'm here for you sis :(
[8:55:46 PM] The Jazz: (hug)
[8:56:06 PM] DarkShadows: ... and if I can create other tulpas... then... maybe, just maybe... if I want it hard enough...
[8:56:10 PM] DarkShadows: I can stop this.
[8:56:34 PM] DarkShadows: ... maybe.
[8:56:41 PM] DarkShadows: It's a slim chance. But it's better than none.
[8:56:47 PM] The Jazz: yes :)
[8:56:49 PM] DarkShadows: Very few things are statistically impossible.
[8:56:54 PM] The Jazz: thats the spirit
[8:58:30 PM] DarkShadows: ... *murmurs to self* I'm more... I'm more like you, or like him... than I am like them. But they need me. This world needs me. I have a reason for being here, I wasn't an accident.
[8:58:48 PM] DarkShadows: ... I wasn't an accident.
[8:59:06 PM] The Jazz: :) everything has a reason
[9:00:06 PM] Brahian: Everything has a reason, huh, Jazz?
[9:00:11 PM] Brahian: So then
[9:00:18 PM] Brahian: What was the reason for...
[9:00:22 PM] Brahian: Nevermind
[9:00:37 PM] The Jazz: ?
[9:01:08 PM] Brahian: It's nothing
[9:01:14 PM] Brahian: Forget it
[9:01:54 PM] DarkShadows: ... and my greatest fear... is that you'll all treat me differently. More... gingerly. More like an alien.
[9:01:57 PM] DarkShadows: ...
[9:02:01 PM] DarkShadows: I don't want to be special.
[9:02:36 PM] Brahian: I won't treat you differently, Shadows
[9:02:43 PM] Brahian: Ever if you aren't like us
[9:02:47 PM] Brahian: You're still you
[9:02:54 PM] Brahian: You're still our friend
[9:03:03 PM] Brahian: And we'll still love you <3
[9:03:10 PM] Brahian: right guys?
[9:03:11 PM] DarkShadows: (hug) please don't leave me.
[9:03:19 PM] The Jazz: We wont sis
[9:03:24 PM] The Jazz: we're family
[9:03:32 PM] The Jazz: family means sticking together :)
[9:04:52 PM] DarkShadows: ... thank you.
[9:04:58 PM] DarkShadows: Both of you.
[9:05:09 PM] Brahian: (hug)
[9:07:21 PM] DarkShadows: ... so... if the world's doomed again... what exactly should we do about it?
[9:07:44 PM] The Jazz: I dont know about you
[9:07:49 PM] The Jazz: but I'm gonna take a nap
[9:07:52 PM] The Jazz: XD
[9:08:44 PM] DarkShadows: ... so you arrived to drop a bomb on pretty much everyone and comfort me, and now you're gonna go nap.
[9:08:49 PM] DarkShadows: ... what.
[9:08:57 PM] Brahian: XD
[9:09:04 PM] DarkShadows: ... We need a contingency plan. And that means we need to start getting other people here.
[9:09:20 PM] DarkShadows: ... Including those beings on our side. I propose a meeting, a thinktank of sorts.
[9:09:37 PM] The Jazz: who do you want me to call?
[9:11:43 PM] DarkShadows: Well first we need to ensure the rest of the ladybugs are here - Zack, Bunny, etc. Pandora, we know he's here. He's always here.
[9:12:10 PM] The Jazz: Yes I am :) ~Pandora
[9:12:19 PM] DarkShadows: That will take time, getting them gathered, and interested in continuing this.
[9:12:54 PM] DarkShadows: Then we'll probably want to get the Tall Guy and Willow in here, although if Willow *is* indeed the God's Wife... we may need to be wary of that.
[9:13:16 PM] DarkShadows: Are there any other Altered we could bring in? Obviously not the Seal, the Seal has been destroyed...
[9:13:26 PM] DarkShadows: Any on our side...
[9:13:35 PM] The Jazz: ########################################################################################################################################===============!""""#"$"$##"#$"$%$$$##$##$$$$$$$$$$$$$$####
[9:13:42 PM] DarkShadows: ... oh, now what.
[9:13:47 PM] The Jazz: OuO
[9:13:53 PM] DarkShadows: ... Willow.
[9:14:04 PM] The Jazz: helloOuO
[9:14:12 PM] The Jazz: Ifelt.needed OuO
[9:14:16 PM] DarkShadows: ... *small, vaguely sad smile* ... hi, mom...
[9:14:28 PM] The Jazz: hello.child OuO
[9:14:53 PM] DarkShadows: ... can you tell me anything you know about a being known as God's Wife?
[9:15:07 PM] The Jazz: yes OuO
[9:15:41 PM] The Jazz: Its.abeing.chosenbygod.thatmanifestsitself.asthemidpoint.ofexistance OuO shecanchange.theworld
[9:16:12 PM] DarkShadows: ... are you aware that you are possibly implicated as *being* this being?
[9:16:41 PM] DarkShadows: ... and that apparently Pandora wants to kill someone who may or may not be said being?
[9:16:57 PM] DarkShadows: some completely unrelated person.
[9:17:02 PM] The Jazz: IamthisbeingOuO
[9:17:15 PM] The Jazz: evenbeforeIbecamewillowOuO
[9:17:30 PM] DarkShadows: ... then you're aware... why did you create me?
[9:17:47 PM] DarkShadows: why think up a seemingly average human being?
[9:18:03 PM] The Jazz: IwantedadaughterOuO
[9:19:18 PM] DarkShadows: ... why, if you have all this power... why'd you allow the Pale Maiden to want to destroy the world again? Why'd you let Pandora...
[9:19:49 PM] DarkShadows: ... why didn't you stop it?
[9:20:16 PM] The Jazz: somethingsIcantstop OuO
[9:20:58 PM] DarkShadows: ... but we can stop it, again. We can stop it, and keep it from happening...
[9:21:30 PM] DarkShadows: ... you are aware that to stop the paradox, to stop this from recurring again and again... we have to kill you. and that means that I'll die.
[9:22:22 PM] The Jazz: Youmaybeathoughtmadebyme OuO butyouarefleshandbloodifIdieOuOIwill.justdieOuO you.safe and alive
[9:22:44 PM] DarkShadows: ... how am I a physical, flesh and blood being... when Loviatar isn't?
[9:22:50 PM] DarkShadows: How is that even possible...?
[9:23:35 PM] The Jazz: LoviatarwasOuO
[9:23:40 PM] The Jazz: stillisOuO
[9:24:06 PM] DarkShadows: ... and yet, she was never more than a thought... and if you so wanted she and I *both* could stop existing instantly.
[9:24:30 PM] The Jazz: thatappliestoeverybeingOuO
[9:24:37 PM] DarkShadows: ... yes.
[9:24:37 PM] The Jazz: notjustyouOuO
[9:24:40 PM] DarkShadows: yes it does...
[9:24:59 PM] The Jazz: wantmetostopeverythingOuO
[9:25:22 PM] The Jazz: tomeltintotheverseOuO
[9:25:38 PM] The Jazz: todie.knowingIsavedeveryoneOuO
[9:25:56 PM] The Jazz: becauseIcandothat.rightnow.in.an.instantOuO
[9:26:11 PM] DarkShadows: ... but i don't want you to die, mom. I don't want anyone to die, but...
[9:26:14 PM] DarkShadows: the needs of the many...
[9:26:32 PM] DarkShadows: ... What if it isn't that simple? Then you would have sacrificed yourself for nothing.
[9:27:07 PM] The Jazz: Ihavetotry.atleastOuO
[9:27:36 PM] DarkShadows: ... and what if it makes it worse? If you control the fate of the universe... then what happens to a fateless universe?
[9:28:39 PM] The Jazz: Slenderman,canbecomeGod'swifebyabsorbing.mypowersOuO
[9:29:14 PM] The Jazz: butIthinkpeopleshouldbeforthemselvesOuO
[9:29:21 PM] The Jazz: withoutcontrolOuO
[9:29:41 PM] DarkShadows: ... yes.
[9:29:48 PM] DarkShadows: yes, you're right. Nothing should be... controlled.
[9:30:17 PM] The Jazz: SoImgoingtogo OuO
[9:30:24 PM] The Jazz: dothatOuO
[9:30:27 PM] DarkShadows: ... Willow. Mom.
[9:30:34 PM] DarkShadows: ... I'm sorry about... about the Seal.
[9:30:41 PM] DarkShadows: ... I wish... I wish I could have stopped it.
[9:30:47 PM] The Jazz: OuO yes,me too
[9:30:54 PM] DarkShadows: (hug)
[9:31:14 PM] The Jazz: Love you Dark, my child. Be good
[9:31:15 PM] The Jazz: -Mom
[9:31:20 PM] Brahian: Wait.
[9:31:22 PM] Brahian: Mother
[9:31:27 PM] Brahian: You
[9:31:33 PM] Brahian: You're really gonna do this?
[9:31:50 PM] The Jazz: I think she's gone Brahian
[9:31:58 PM] Brahian: No.
[9:32:00 PM] Brahian: But.
[9:32:01 PM] Brahian: But.
[9:32:04 PM] Brahian: Mother!
[9:32:06 PM] DarkShadows: ... *waits to see if she was right and I'm not gonna die*
[9:32:07 PM] Brahian: NO!
[9:32:10 PM] DarkShadows: ... Brah...
[9:32:22 PM] DarkShadows: ... The needs of the many outweigh the needs of the few...
[9:32:31 PM] DarkShadows: ... the universe... needs this.
[9:32:31 PM] Brahian: But I still
[9:32:37 PM] Brahian: I wanted to talk to her...
[9:32:39 PM] Brahian: I...
[9:32:39 PM] DarkShadows: ... if she's correct, it's what must be done...
[9:32:56 PM] DarkShadows: Brah. If I haven't already, I'm about to lose my real mother.
[9:33:00 PM] DarkShadows: ... How do you think I feel?
[9:33:10 PM] The Jazz: same sis
[9:33:20 PM] Brahian: I know, but
[9:33:23 PM] Brahian: I just
[9:33:28 PM] Brahian: wanted to say goodbye
[9:33:31 PM] Brahian: one last time
[9:33:36 PM] DarkShadows: ... and so did I.
[9:33:47 PM] Brahian: ;(
[9:33:54 PM] DarkShadows: ... the world...
[9:33:58 PM] DarkShadows: the universe...
[9:34:14 PM] DarkShadows: ... now I need to refigure out where I fit in it.
[9:34:31 PM] Brahian: But you don't understand
[9:34:40 PM] Brahian: She was like a real mother to me!
[9:34:44 PM] Brahian: She was...
[9:34:46 PM] Brahian: I...
[9:35:00 PM] DarkShadows: ...
[9:35:16 PM] DarkShadows: I think... I owe the Slenderman more than a few apologies.
[9:35:36 PM] DarkShadows: ... I'm not human after all... why should I fear him, or anything?
[9:35:43 PM] The Jazz: #############Reconfigurating Universe#############
[9:35:50 PM] DarkShadows: ... what
[9:36:15 PM] The Jazz: #############Newborn initiation protocol activated#############
[9:36:23 PM] DarkShadows: Jazz if this is another prank I swear to God.
[9:36:23 PM] Brahian: Oh ha.
[9:36:25 PM] Brahian: Ha ha.
[9:36:28 PM] Brahian: NOT FUNNY.
[9:36:56 PM] The Jazz: #############Do you wish to reboot Universe? Enter Yes or No#############
[9:37:05 PM] DarkShadows: seriously, Jazz.
[9:37:26 PM] Brahian: This is really not the time.
[9:37:39 PM] DarkShadows: ... uh brah what if this ain't Jazz?
[9:37:49 PM] Brahian: It's obviously Jazz.
[9:38:01 PM] Brahian: He always pulls the stupid Newborn joke.
[9:38:06 PM] Brahian: I'm sick of it.
[9:38:11 PM] DarkShadows: No, no it's not... I don't think he'd take it this far.
[9:38:31 PM] The Jazz: Guys its not me o.o''
[9:38:34 PM] DarkShadows: Uh, Newbie, listen... can I call you that, "Newbie"? If we reboot the universe are we all gonna die?
[9:38:55 PM] Brahian: oh
[9:39:03 PM] Brahian: sorry then, jazz u_u
[9:39:06 PM] The Jazz: #############Reconfigurating Universe means reconfigurating universe, it is what it is.#############
[9:39:27 PM] DarkShadows: ... I hope that doing so is for the best, then...
[9:39:39 PM] The Jazz: #############Reconfigurating Universe?#############
[9:39:56 PM] DarkShadows: ... yes.
[9:40:11 PM] Brahian: o:
[9:40:28 PM] The Jazz: #############Universe Reboot activated#############
[9:40:42 PM] The Jazz: #############Loading....#############
[9:41:02 PM] DarkShadows: ... if this fucks us all over... I just want everyone to know that pressure made me do it.
[9:41:58 PM] The Jazz: #Universe reset to state of June 1st 2013#
[9:42:10 PM] The Jazz: #Goodbye#
[9:42:16 PM] DarkShadows: ... Guys did I just System Restore the universe?
[9:42:23 PM] Brahian: ...
[9:42:31 PM] Brahian: So um
[9:42:49 PM] Brahian: the last 43 days never happened?
[9:42:53 PM] DarkShadows: ... um. Happy June 1st?
[9:42:55 PM] Brahian: alright then...
[9:43:08 PM] The Jazz: I like this
[9:43:18 PM] The Jazz: June 2nd Eva contacted you and made this all happen
[9:43:21 PM] The Jazz: so
[9:43:26 PM] Brahian: Oh.
[9:43:31 PM] DarkShadows: ... the day right before...
[9:43:46 PM] DarkShadows: ... we can prevent this whole thing, Jazz.
[9:43:51 PM] The Jazz: When she contacts you again, deny her
[9:43:57 PM] DarkShadows: We've been given a second chance.
[9:44:21 PM] DarkShadows: ... *small smirk* To understand the future, we have to go back in time.
[9:46:41 PM] DarkShadows: ... they'll still be trailing me. Guess I know why now.
[9:47:13 PM] Brahian: so has Willow never existed now?
[9:47:23 PM] Brahian: How would...
[9:47:27 PM] Brahian: How would that work?
[9:47:33 PM] DarkShadows: I am... confused.
[9:47:45 PM] DarkShadows: ... we could contact her. see if she is still extant.
[9:47:50 PM] Bunny: Hel.lfmghoni5urh
[9:47:59 PM] DarkShadows: ... yeah that's about how I feel too Bunny.
[9:49:38 PM] DarkShadows: ... I'm... gonna go for a walk. In the park.
[9:49:46 PM] DarkShadows: ... I haven't been there for eight years.
[9:49:59 PM] Brahian: I'll, um...
[9:50:06 PM] The Jazz: $$$$$$$$$$$$$$#"##"#"#"OuO
[9:50:11 PM] Brahian: Do what I usually do, then
[9:50:13 PM] Brahian: only
[9:50:16 PM] DarkShadows: ... mom?
[9:50:18 PM] Brahian: ...
[9:50:19 PM] Brahian: Mother...?
[9:50:22 PM] Brahian: Is that...
[9:50:23 PM] The Jazz: Child OuO
[9:50:24 PM] Brahian: Is that you?
[9:50:29 PM] The Jazz: OuO
[9:50:36 PM] DarkShadows: Jesus fucking Christ *clings*
[9:50:48 PM] Brahian: (hug)
[9:51:08 PM] Bunny: Bunny stays a comfortable distance away
[9:51:08 PM] Brahian: TuT happy tears ;u;
[9:51:08 PM] *** The Jazz added Teddy Bear's Phone account ***
[9:51:26 PM] The Jazz: (hug)
[9:52:25 PM] Eva: So I bet you are wondering why I've gathered you all here
[9:52:57 PM] Eva: I need you to help me with something, a favor I'm trying to do for someone..
[9:53:11 PM] Brahian: Nope.
[9:53:15 PM] Brahian: No thank you.
[9:53:19 PM] Brahian: We quit.
[9:53:23 PM] Eva: Are you guys familiar with...ehm
[9:53:24 PM] Eva: what?
[9:53:35 PM] Eva: I didnt even explain what I wanted
[9:53:46 PM] Brahian: Too bad.
[9:53:48 PM] DarkShadows: ... no
[9:53:48 PM] Brahian: Not interested.
[9:53:53 PM] Brahian: Go away.
[9:53:59 PM] DarkShadows: we don't even know who you are.
[9:54:09 PM] Eva: See, you guys are prophesied to be the Ladybugs that will help me
[9:54:19 PM] Eva: By the blind man's book
[9:54:24 PM] DarkShadows: ... We know. And we're not interested.
[9:54:29 PM] Brahian: WE DON'T CARE
[9:54:33 PM] Brahian: GO AWAAY
[9:54:36 PM] Brahian: NAAAOOO
[9:54:39 PM] DarkShadows: ... Prophecies... can be broken.
[9:54:53 PM] Brahian: Easily.
[9:55:05 PM] Eva: ehm
[9:55:14 PM] Brahian: LALALALALALAALALALALALALALALALA
[9:55:26 PM] DarkShadows: ... Leave.
[9:55:27 PM] Eva: ok, I was going to try to help mother out by making her human again. You know willow
[9:55:37 PM] DarkShadows: Mom doesn't want your help.
[9:55:39 PM] DarkShadows: Or need it.
[9:55:40 PM] DarkShadows: Leave.
[9:55:50 PM] Brahian: Neither does Egg btw
[9:55:54 PM] Brahian: shoo
[9:56:05 PM] Eva: ok, can I still be here and be your friend?
[9:57:09 PM] DarkShadows: ...
[9:57:13 PM] DarkShadows: no.
[9:57:17 PM] DarkShadows: leave before I kick you.
[9:57:44 PM] Eva: *Doesnt leave*
[9:58:36 PM] System: Available commands:
 /me [text]
 /topic [text]
 /add [skypename+]
 /alertson [text]
 /alertsoff
 /leave
 /get creator
 /get role
 /whois [skypename]
 /setrole [skypename] MASTER|HELPER|USER|LISTENER
 /kick [skypename]
 /kickban [skypename]
 /get uri
 /get options
 /set options [[+|-]flag] ..
 /setpassword [password] [password hint]
 /clearpassword
 /get password_hint
 /get banlist
 /get allowlist
 /set banlist [[+|-]mask] ..
 /set allowlist [[+|-]mask] ..
 /golive [token]
 /invite [skypename]
 /fork [skypename+]
 /help
For more help please see http://www.skype.com/go/help.chathelp
[9:58:46 PM] DarkShadows: /kickbaneva.narajo
[9:59:01 PM] Eva: o.o
[9:59:29 PM] DarkShadows: fine. then we'll leave.
[9:59:47 PM] *** The Jazz removed Eva from this conversation. ***
[9:59:50 PM] The Jazz: there :3
[9:59:54 PM] DarkShadows: thanks Jazz.
[9:59:55 PM] The Jazz: universe saved
[9:59:55 PM] Brahian: oh yay
[10:00:06 PM] Bunny: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tsfnuyyjaB0
[10:00:09 PM] DarkShadows: ... so damn simple we could have overlooked it... of course we never knew.
[10:00:34 PM] Bunny: This is a nice celebration song
[10:00:56 PM] DarkShadows: it is.
[10:01:08 PM] Brahian: um
[10:01:11 PM] Brahian: okay then
[10:01:14 PM] The Jazz: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6EfhAFA2yFE I think it calls for celebration
[10:01:17 PM] Brahian: to each their own
[10:01:26 PM] DarkShadows: Jazz, seriously? XD
[10:01:30 PM] The Jazz: :3
[10:01:33 PM] DarkShadows: ... okay that is pretty appropriate music.
[10:01:33 PM] Brahian: YES
[10:01:35 PM] Brahian: THAT
[10:01:41 PM] Brahian: THAT IS THE ONE I WAS THINKING OF
[10:01:55 PM] DarkShadows: I am a badass tulpa that just system-restored the universe.
[10:02:05 PM] The Jazz: did someone log all of that?
[10:02:18 PM] Brahian: uh... no...
[10:02:21 PM] DarkShadows: ... I will if nobody else will.
[10:02:29 PM] The Jazz: do eet :3
[10:02:30 PM] Brahian: yes please do
[10:02:38 PM] DarkShadows: ok

AnotherYear Log 17 - I Am Not Of This World

what am i...
~Shadows

[11:55:16 AM] *** The Jazz added DarkShadows ***
[11:55:42 AM] *** The Jazz added Bunny ***
[11:55:52 AM] *** The Jazz added Brahian ***
[11:55:55 AM] *** The Jazz added Wally ***
[11:56:22 AM] The Jazz: I'm sure you're wondering why I've gathered you all here.
[11:56:46 AM] *** The Jazz added Bruceta Wayne ***
[11:57:42 AM] Wally: ?
[11:57:52 AM] The Jazz: I need to speak to Shadows
[11:58:00 AM] The Jazz: Are you there Shadows?
[11:58:01 AM] DarkShadows: ... yes?
[11:58:17 AM] DarkShadows: I'm going somewhere at 1 but I can talk.
[11:58:20 AM] DarkShadows: something wrong?
[11:58:22 AM] The Jazz: You know how Willow said that everything is ok?
[11:58:29 AM] DarkShadows: ... fuck me, it's not, is it?
[11:58:34 AM] The Jazz: No
[11:58:36 AM] DarkShadows: I fucking knew it.
[11:58:37 AM] The Jazz: its never ok
[11:59:24 AM] The Jazz: Solomon kind of changed events around by time traveling, causing the Pale Maiden to actually want to go through with the plan of eliminating everything.
[12:00:15 PM] DarkShadows: ... fuck.
[12:00:29 PM] DarkShadows: so again, *why doesn't someone do something about Solomon*?
[12:00:33 PM] DarkShadows: Before this shit happens?
[12:00:49 PM] DarkShadows: And what do you want me to do? I can't do shit, I'm a human.
[12:01:02 PM] The Jazz: He's your friend
[12:01:05 PM] The Jazz: talk to him
[12:01:10 PM] The Jazz: he can change it back
[12:01:34 PM] DarkShadows: ... He... he is?
[12:01:45 PM] The Jazz: Remember?
[12:01:50 PM] The Jazz: Solomon is Pandora
[12:01:56 PM] DarkShadows: ... Oh yeah, right.
[12:02:10 PM] DarkShadows: AKA, guy who decided to betray us after Exa got him.
[12:02:56 PM] DarkShadows: ... Shit. It's been long enough without any sort of sighting of Willow, or the Faceless Wonder, or *anything* weird that I forgot. I'm kind of important.
[12:03:01 PM] DarkShadows: For reasons I *still* don't understand
[12:03:08 PM] DarkShadows: And reasons I don't *want* to understand.
[12:04:48 PM] DarkShadows: So... exactly how far into this world destruction plan is the Maiden?
[12:06:02 PM] The Jazz: She destroyed the Seal
[12:06:07 PM] The Jazz: releasing all of them
[12:06:11 PM] DarkShadows: ...
[12:06:14 PM] DarkShadows: So we're fucked.
[12:06:39 PM] DarkShadows: ... where is Pandora now?
[12:06:47 PM] The Jazz: In this chat
[12:06:49 PM] The Jazz: watching
[12:07:08 PM] DarkShadows: ... Pandora... why?
[12:07:21 PM] DarkShadows: Why the fuck would you *want the fucking world to end*?
[12:07:34 PM] DarkShadows: WTF is wrong with you? Why would you drag all of us into this shit again?
[12:07:57 PM] The Jazz: #I have my reasons ~Solomon
[12:08:08 PM] DarkShadows: I was getting better. I was doing just fucking fine and actually was able to *sleep soundly at night again* and now I'm dragged back into this fucking nightmare.
[12:08:29 PM] DarkShadows: What reason could you *possibly* have for starting this over again?
[12:08:47 PM] Solomon: You may not realize this
[12:08:55 PM] Solomon: but I'm actually trying to help
[12:09:20 PM] DarkShadows: Fucking *how* is trying to get the world destroyed helping?
[12:09:37 PM] DarkShadows: Because right now all it's doing is making me panic.
[12:10:19 PM] Solomon: Do you know how the book operates?
[12:10:25 PM] Solomon: Do you know who controls the book?
[12:10:33 PM | Edited 12:10:34 PM] Solomon: do you know who controls everyone?
[12:10:40 PM] Solomon: That is the person
[12:10:45 PM] Solomon: I'm trying to destroy
[12:10:48 PM] Solomon: I'm trying to free you
[12:10:55 PM] DarkShadows: ... You're trying to destroy the Blind Man?
[12:11:32 PM] DarkShadows: ... I'm sorry I'm just confused. First I get told this shit isn't even halfway over, then I get told I don't even have *free fucking will*.
[12:11:49 PM] Solomon: Not the blind man
[12:11:56 PM] Solomon: the blind man has no control over the book
[12:12:00 PM] Solomon: he just reads it
[12:12:18 PM] DarkShadows: ... then who...?
[12:12:44 PM] Solomon: Care to guess?
[12:12:50 PM] Solomon: I love people's guesses
[12:13:36 PM] DarkShadows: Well controlling people would obviously make me think of that splintery creep Wooden Girl. But I doubt she's behind this. I mean I wouldn't put it past her, but this seems too much even for her.
[12:13:59 PM] DarkShadows: Exa seems to have a thing for control and for experimenting, if this is some sort of experiment I wouldn't call her innocent.
[12:14:22 PM] DarkShadows: It can't be any of the Altered that were previously Sealed, they had no means of escape.
[12:15:04 PM] DarkShadows: ... I still don't necessarly trust any of the Altered, or the Fears, and I'm well aware of the possibility of someone working behind our back.
[12:15:23 PM] DarkShadows: Possibly even a Sentimental working behind our back, but I'm not sure they would have enough power to control Blindy's book...
[12:15:34 PM] DarkShadows: ... Fuck I just pissed him off by calling him Blindy didn't I?
[12:15:42 PM] Solomon: XD
[12:15:48 PM] Solomon: Its actually none of these things
[12:15:52 PM] Solomon: not altered
[12:15:53 PM] Solomon: not fears
[12:15:56 PM] Solomon: not sentimentals
[12:15:56 PM] DarkShadows: ... then what?
[12:16:06 PM] DarkShadows: What the Hell are we dealing with now?
[12:16:07 PM] Solomon: Its a phenonemon that I cant even explain myself
[12:16:27 PM] DarkShadows: ... Fuck, is it that creep Lovi? I cannot deal with that. I can't do that again, nope, not happening.
[12:16:32 PM] Solomon: It's called "God's Wife" or at least I gave it that name.
[12:16:42 PM] Solomon: no it isnt any of the chasers either
[12:16:44 PM] DarkShadows: ... God's Wife...
[12:16:47 PM] Solomon: yes
[12:17:02 PM] DarkShadows: Is it a being, or...
[12:17:10 PM] Solomon: yes and no, let me explain
[12:17:12 PM] Bunny: Wait
[12:17:16 PM] Bunny: God's Wife
[12:17:19 PM] Bunny: SHit.
[12:17:26 PM] Solomon: ?
[12:17:27 PM] DarkShadows: Bunny... what?
[12:18:17 PM] Bunny: Where have I heard that before
[12:18:37 PM] DarkShadows: I have no idea and I have never heard of it.
[12:19:29 PM] Solomon: God's wife is basically...a force kind of in the universe that manifests itself as a being, humanoid even. Its a girl that frankly doesnt even know what she is doing.
[12:19:43 PM] Solomon: Her commands come from the subconcious
[12:20:17 PM] DarkShadows: ... and do you have any idea what or who exactly this being looks like, or is?
[12:20:26 PM] Solomon: For a while
[12:20:29 PM] Solomon: I thought it was you
[12:20:41 PM] Solomon: because of how interested everyone seemed to be in you
[12:20:51 PM] Solomon: I'm still not 100% sure that it isnt
[12:21:00 PM] Solomon: but I have a new suspect that seems to be closer to it
[12:21:20 PM] DarkShadows: who?
[12:21:58 PM] Solomon: A girl named Sasha, lives in Queens. Is an honor student
[12:22:14 PM] Solomon: is an orphan and has basically adopted her little sister and is taking care of her.
[12:22:26 PM] Solomon: 20 years old
[12:22:36 PM] Solomon: has a girlfriend if I recall
[12:22:41 PM] DarkShadows: hm
[12:24:25 PM] Solomon: Your job is to help me kill her, if the universe becomes good again then she was God's wife
[12:24:33 PM] Solomon: if not, then what you gonna do
[12:24:44 PM] Solomon: Ah reminds me of the witch hunts
[12:24:46 PM] Solomon: good times
[12:25:53 PM] DarkShadows: ... Realize I killed someone and feel horribly guilty.
[12:25:59 PM] DarkShadows: ... I... I don't wanna kill someone.
[12:26:05 PM] DarkShadows: I can't even kill *spiders*.
[12:26:14 PM] Solomon: You wouldnt kill her
[12:26:16 PM] Solomon: I would
[12:26:21 PM] Solomon: you need to help me find her
[12:26:45 PM] Solomon: she kind of got freaked out at me showing up at her house with a shotgun, ran away.
[12:26:45 PM] DarkShadows: ... how can we guarantee that getting rid of her wouldn't cause more problems?
[12:26:47 PM] DarkShadows: ...
[12:26:54 PM] DarkShadows: well YEAH SO WOULD I.
[12:26:59 PM] DarkShadows: dude.
[12:27:47 PM] DarkShadows: this... this isn't...
[12:27:53 PM] DarkShadows: ...
[12:28:10 PM] DarkShadows: Why does the universe like putting me in improbable fucking scenarios
[12:28:15 PM] Solomon: All I'm asking is to help find a girl so I can murder her in cold blood in order to save the world.
[12:28:24 PM] DarkShadows: ... You sound like a *nutcase*.
[12:28:45 PM] Solomon: So do you, all perspective my dear
[12:28:48 PM] DarkShadows: You sound like those people who think Reptilians rule the earth, you know that?
[12:29:04 PM] Solomon: -------------------------------33323#$"$#"$#"
[12:29:09 PM] DarkShadows: ...
[12:29:12 PM] DarkShadows: oh what now?
[12:29:31 PM] DarkShadows: *curls up and quietly cries* Why. Why the fuck does this shit have to happen *again*
[12:29:41 PM] DarkShadows: I had a job! I had a fucking life, and now *this shit*.
[12:29:43 PM] DarkShadows: Again.
[12:29:55 PM] Solomon: (X)
[12:30:04 PM] Solomon: (X)(X)(X)
[12:30:06 PM] Solomon: (X)(X)(X)(X)(X)(X)
[12:30:08 PM] DarkShadows: ... oh not you again.
[12:30:14 PM] DarkShadows: Jesus fucking Christ not again
[12:30:20 PM] Solomon: Hello.
[12:30:34 PM] Solomon: Thats.no.way.togreet
[12:30:37 PM] DarkShadows: I thought you left me alone
[12:30:43 PM] Solomon: I.did
[12:30:54 PM] Solomon: Ifelt.likeyouwerein.danger
[12:31:29 PM] DarkShadows: ... I just want this shit to end to be honest. Then Pandora decides, "LOL no, let's fuck the universe up again! Shadows can't have a normal life! What the fuck is NORMAL?!"
[12:32:04 PM] DarkShadows: I'm not doing this again, I can't do this again. As it is my shrink thinks it's a nightmare I had, because I'm a damn good liar.
[12:32:28 PM] DarkShadows: That is what this whole ordeal did to me, made me need to go talk to a *fucking psychotherapist* just to *deal* with half of it.
[12:32:53 PM] DarkShadows: So now that you know the update on what's going on with me, how the fuck do I save the universe, again? I'm a chemist not fucking Rambo.
[12:33:02 PM] Solomon: (hug) There there
[12:33:09 PM] Solomon: dont cry dear
[12:33:15 PM] DarkShadows: I'm just one woman I'm not special...
[12:33:32 PM] DarkShadows: I'm not special. I don't want to be special.
[12:33:38 PM] DarkShadows: I want to be left alone...
[12:33:38 PM] Solomon: You are special
[12:33:40 PM] Solomon: to me
[12:33:43 PM] Solomon: (hug)
[12:34:49 PM] DarkShadows: ... why? Why am I important to anyfuckingone or anyfuckingthing anywhere, I don't want to be important.
[12:34:58 PM] DarkShadows: I want to live a halfway decent, unobtrusive life.
[12:35:13 PM] DarkShadows: I want to believe that science exists and things like... things like what I saw...
[12:35:24 PM] Solomon: I'm trying to make that happen for you dear, I just am one being
[12:35:28 PM] Solomon: I can't work miracles
[12:35:43 PM] DarkShadows: Why do you care about one human being? I;m one of billions.
[12:36:08 PM] DarkShadows: You could probably crush me like an ant and never take notice, why am I so damn important?
[12:36:18 PM] Solomon: (heart) you are special to me, you make me feel ... happy almost.
[12:37:36 PM] DarkShadows: ... okay this isn't happening. I am now convinced I'm dreaming.
[12:37:44 PM] DarkShadows: *pinches self. It doesn't help*.
[12:37:46 PM] DarkShadows: ...
[12:37:55 PM] DarkShadows: There's no way. There's no logical fucking way...
[12:38:37 PM] DarkShadows: That something as... powerful, as incredibly inhumanly powerful as you...
[12:38:57 PM] Solomon: Cant it just be that you make me feel like I'm not such a horrible being, like I have a purpose. You know I do have feelings, you've met them. I feel like you...understand me.
[12:39:14 PM] DarkShadows: ... About as much as I can comprehend...
[12:39:18 PM] DarkShadows: Yes.
[12:39:59 PM] DarkShadows: ... Everything has a purpose... You know that's the one thing that kept me from losing it completely? Believing that there's a reason for all this to happen?
[12:40:12 PM] Solomon: I believe so too
[12:40:18 PM] Solomon: so what is it that I can do for you
[12:40:19 PM] Solomon: my dear
[12:40:43 PM] DarkShadows: ... what can you tell me about something called "God's Wife"?
[12:41:58 PM] Solomon: It's a person chosen by a being most likely the universe or the thing you humans call god. It's a person that basically alters reality at her will.
[12:42:07 PM] Solomon: That's how Pandora became Solomon
[12:42:13 PM] Solomon: God's wife wished so
[12:42:16 PM] Solomon: subconciously
[12:42:31 PM] Solomon: meaning that Pandora knew God's wife, hence why he thought it was you
[12:42:34 PM] Solomon: at first
[12:42:45 PM] DarkShadows: But it's not me. Definatively not me?
[12:43:22 PM] Solomon: Would you ever wish for Pandora to become what he is now?
[12:43:43 PM] Solomon: I doubt it
[12:43:54 PM] Solomon: So I think we can rule you out
[12:44:00 PM] DarkShadows: no. I wouldn't wish something like what's happened on anyone.
[12:44:09 PM] Solomon: [12:43 PM] The Jazz: <<< So I think we can rule you out
[12:45:13 PM] Solomon: I think I know who God's wife is
[12:45:19 PM] Solomon: and its not the girl Solomon mentioned
[12:45:54 PM] DarkShadows: ... who, then?
[12:52:40 PM] Solomon: Willow
[12:53:30 PM] DarkShadows: ... why... why would Willow...
[12:53:46 PM] DarkShadows: Fuck. If it's Willow... we can't kill her. doing that would fuck things up.
[12:53:54 PM] DarkShadows: and that means Pandora is going to kill an innocent girl.
[12:54:06 PM] Solomon: I can absorb her powers
[12:54:15 PM] Solomon: then she's human
[12:54:19 PM] Solomon: then we can
[12:54:23 PM] DarkShadows: ...
[12:54:33 PM] DarkShadows: Yes, you could do that.
[12:54:42 PM] DarkShadows: ... I... don't want people to die, but...
[12:55:01 PM] DarkShadows: ... what must be done. The needs of the many...
[12:55:14 PM] Solomon: She would still live
[12:55:17 PM] Solomon: as a part of me
[12:55:29 PM] Solomon: her powers have her conciousness (sic) inside it
[12:57:00 PM] DarkShadows: ... Do we have absolute proof that she's the one?
[12:57:39 PM] DarkShadows: I'm a scientist, Tall One. I don't do anything without at least some idea that it might or might not work. And I sure as hell don't work without some sort of credible proof or basis for believing something.
[12:58:04 PM] Solomon: I do have proof
[12:58:25 PM] Solomon: The thing is, you weren't one to be born.
[12:58:34 PM] Solomon: Your existence is the proof
[12:58:39 PM] Solomon: she made that happen
[12:58:42 PM] Solomon: by wishing it
[1:01:05 PM] DarkShadows: ...
[1:01:09 PM] DarkShadows: ... I wasn't born.
[1:01:11 PM] DarkShadows: I was...
[1:01:18 PM] DarkShadows: I was just thought up one day, and...
[1:01:27 PM] DarkShadows: ... I'm... I'm not human, then?
[1:01:31 PM] DarkShadows: I'm... I'm a...
[1:01:58 PM] Solomon: closer to being a sentimental
[1:02:26 PM] DarkShadows: ...
[1:02:39 PM] DarkShadows: ... then what exactly am I?
[1:03:15 PM] Solomon: A tulpa
[1:04:27 PM] DarkShadows: ...
[1:04:43 PM] DarkShadows: I could... *soft laugh* I could stop existing in an instant if she willed it...
[1:04:57 PM] DarkShadows: ... I need time. Alone. Now.
[1:05:38 PM] Solomon: ok
[1:05:41 PM] Solomon: I understand
[1:05:44 PM] Solomon: bye