what am i...
~Shadows
[11:55:16 AM] *** The Jazz added DarkShadows ***
[11:55:42 AM] *** The Jazz added Bunny ***
[11:55:52 AM] *** The Jazz added Brahian ***
[11:55:55 AM] *** The Jazz added Wally ***
[11:56:22 AM] The Jazz: I'm sure you're wondering why I've gathered you all here.
[11:56:46 AM] *** The Jazz added Bruceta Wayne ***
[11:57:42 AM] Wally: ?
[11:57:52 AM] The Jazz: I need to speak to Shadows
[11:58:00 AM] The Jazz: Are you there Shadows?
[11:58:01 AM] DarkShadows: ... yes?
[11:58:17 AM] DarkShadows: I'm going somewhere at 1 but I can talk.
[11:58:20 AM] DarkShadows: something wrong?
[11:58:22 AM] The Jazz: You know how Willow said that everything is ok?
[11:58:29 AM] DarkShadows: ... fuck me, it's not, is it?
[11:58:34 AM] The Jazz: No
[11:58:36 AM] DarkShadows: I fucking knew it.
[11:58:37 AM] The Jazz: its never ok
[11:59:24 AM] The Jazz: Solomon kind of changed events around by time traveling, causing the Pale Maiden to actually want to go through with the plan of eliminating everything.
[12:00:15 PM] DarkShadows: ... fuck.
[12:00:29 PM] DarkShadows: so again, *why doesn't someone do something about Solomon*?
[12:00:33 PM] DarkShadows: Before this shit happens?
[12:00:49 PM] DarkShadows: And what do you want me to do? I can't do shit, I'm a human.
[12:01:02 PM] The Jazz: He's your friend
[12:01:05 PM] The Jazz: talk to him
[12:01:10 PM] The Jazz: he can change it back
[12:01:34 PM] DarkShadows: ... He... he is?
[12:01:45 PM] The Jazz: Remember?
[12:01:50 PM] The Jazz: Solomon is Pandora
[12:01:56 PM] DarkShadows: ... Oh yeah, right.
[12:02:10 PM] DarkShadows: AKA, guy who decided to betray us after Exa got him.
[12:02:56 PM] DarkShadows: ... Shit. It's been long enough without any sort of sighting of Willow, or the Faceless Wonder, or *anything* weird that I forgot. I'm kind of important.
[12:03:01 PM] DarkShadows: For reasons I *still* don't understand
[12:03:08 PM] DarkShadows: And reasons I don't *want* to understand.
[12:04:48 PM] DarkShadows: So... exactly how far into this world destruction plan is the Maiden?
[12:06:02 PM] The Jazz: She destroyed the Seal
[12:06:07 PM] The Jazz: releasing all of them
[12:06:11 PM] DarkShadows: ...
[12:06:14 PM] DarkShadows: So we're fucked.
[12:06:39 PM] DarkShadows: ... where is Pandora now?
[12:06:47 PM] The Jazz: In this chat
[12:06:49 PM] The Jazz: watching
[12:07:08 PM] DarkShadows: ... Pandora... why?
[12:07:21 PM] DarkShadows: Why the fuck would you *want the fucking world to end*?
[12:07:34 PM] DarkShadows: WTF is wrong with you? Why would you drag all of us into this shit again?
[12:07:57 PM] The Jazz: #I have my reasons ~Solomon
[12:08:08 PM] DarkShadows: I was getting better. I was doing just fucking fine and actually was able to *sleep soundly at night again* and now I'm dragged back into this fucking nightmare.
[12:08:29 PM] DarkShadows: What reason could you *possibly* have for starting this over again?
[12:08:47 PM] Solomon: You may not realize this
[12:08:55 PM] Solomon: but I'm actually trying to help
[12:09:20 PM] DarkShadows: Fucking *how* is trying to get the world destroyed helping?
[12:09:37 PM] DarkShadows: Because right now all it's doing is making me panic.
[12:10:19 PM] Solomon: Do you know how the book operates?
[12:10:25 PM] Solomon: Do you know who controls the book?
[12:10:33 PM | Edited 12:10:34 PM] Solomon: do you know who controls everyone?
[12:10:40 PM] Solomon: That is the person
[12:10:45 PM] Solomon: I'm trying to destroy
[12:10:48 PM] Solomon: I'm trying to free you
[12:10:55 PM] DarkShadows: ... You're trying to destroy the Blind Man?
[12:11:32 PM] DarkShadows: ... I'm sorry I'm just confused. First I get told this shit isn't even halfway over, then I get told I don't even have *free fucking will*.
[12:11:49 PM] Solomon: Not the blind man
[12:11:56 PM] Solomon: the blind man has no control over the book
[12:12:00 PM] Solomon: he just reads it
[12:12:18 PM] DarkShadows: ... then who...?
[12:12:44 PM] Solomon: Care to guess?
[12:12:50 PM] Solomon: I love people's guesses
[12:13:36 PM] DarkShadows: Well controlling people would obviously make me think of that splintery creep Wooden Girl. But I doubt she's behind this. I mean I wouldn't put it past her, but this seems too much even for her.
[12:13:59 PM] DarkShadows: Exa seems to have a thing for control and for experimenting, if this is some sort of experiment I wouldn't call her innocent.
[12:14:22 PM] DarkShadows: It can't be any of the Altered that were previously Sealed, they had no means of escape.
[12:15:04 PM] DarkShadows: ... I still don't necessarly trust any of the Altered, or the Fears, and I'm well aware of the possibility of someone working behind our back.
[12:15:23 PM] DarkShadows: Possibly even a Sentimental working behind our back, but I'm not sure they would have enough power to control Blindy's book...
[12:15:34 PM] DarkShadows: ... Fuck I just pissed him off by calling him Blindy didn't I?
[12:15:42 PM] Solomon: XD
[12:15:48 PM] Solomon: Its actually none of these things
[12:15:52 PM] Solomon: not altered
[12:15:53 PM] Solomon: not fears
[12:15:56 PM] Solomon: not sentimentals
[12:15:56 PM] DarkShadows: ... then what?
[12:16:06 PM] DarkShadows: What the Hell are we dealing with now?
[12:16:07 PM] Solomon: Its a phenonemon that I cant even explain myself
[12:16:27 PM] DarkShadows: ... Fuck, is it that creep Lovi? I cannot deal with that. I can't do that again, nope, not happening.
[12:16:32 PM] Solomon: It's called "God's Wife" or at least I gave it that name.
[12:16:42 PM] Solomon: no it isnt any of the chasers either
[12:16:44 PM] DarkShadows: ... God's Wife...
[12:16:47 PM] Solomon: yes
[12:17:02 PM] DarkShadows: Is it a being, or...
[12:17:10 PM] Solomon: yes and no, let me explain
[12:17:12 PM] Bunny: Wait
[12:17:16 PM] Bunny: God's Wife
[12:17:19 PM] Bunny: SHit.
[12:17:26 PM] Solomon: ?
[12:17:27 PM] DarkShadows: Bunny... what?
[12:18:17 PM] Bunny: Where have I heard that before
[12:18:37 PM] DarkShadows: I have no idea and I have never heard of it.
[12:19:29 PM] Solomon: God's wife is basically...a force kind of in the universe that manifests itself as a being, humanoid even. Its a girl that frankly doesnt even know what she is doing.
[12:19:43 PM] Solomon: Her commands come from the subconcious
[12:20:17 PM] DarkShadows: ... and do you have any idea what or who exactly this being looks like, or is?
[12:20:26 PM] Solomon: For a while
[12:20:29 PM] Solomon: I thought it was you
[12:20:41 PM] Solomon: because of how interested everyone seemed to be in you
[12:20:51 PM] Solomon: I'm still not 100% sure that it isnt
[12:21:00 PM] Solomon: but I have a new suspect that seems to be closer to it
[12:21:20 PM] DarkShadows: who?
[12:21:58 PM] Solomon: A girl named Sasha, lives in Queens. Is an honor student
[12:22:14 PM] Solomon: is an orphan and has basically adopted her little sister and is taking care of her.
[12:22:26 PM] Solomon: 20 years old
[12:22:36 PM] Solomon: has a girlfriend if I recall
[12:22:41 PM] DarkShadows: hm
[12:24:25 PM] Solomon: Your job is to help me kill her, if the universe becomes good again then she was God's wife
[12:24:33 PM] Solomon: if not, then what you gonna do
[12:24:44 PM] Solomon: Ah reminds me of the witch hunts
[12:24:46 PM] Solomon: good times
[12:25:53 PM] DarkShadows: ... Realize I killed someone and feel horribly guilty.
[12:25:59 PM] DarkShadows: ... I... I don't wanna kill someone.
[12:26:05 PM] DarkShadows: I can't even kill *spiders*.
[12:26:14 PM] Solomon: You wouldnt kill her
[12:26:16 PM] Solomon: I would
[12:26:21 PM] Solomon: you need to help me find her
[12:26:45 PM] Solomon: she kind of got freaked out at me showing up at her house with a shotgun, ran away.
[12:26:45 PM] DarkShadows: ... how can we guarantee that getting rid of her wouldn't cause more problems?
[12:26:47 PM] DarkShadows: ...
[12:26:54 PM] DarkShadows: well YEAH SO WOULD I.
[12:26:59 PM] DarkShadows: dude.
[12:27:47 PM] DarkShadows: this... this isn't...
[12:27:53 PM] DarkShadows: ...
[12:28:10 PM] DarkShadows: Why does the universe like putting me in improbable fucking scenarios
[12:28:15 PM] Solomon: All I'm asking is to help find a girl so I can murder her in cold blood in order to save the world.
[12:28:24 PM] DarkShadows: ... You sound like a *nutcase*.
[12:28:45 PM] Solomon: So do you, all perspective my dear
[12:28:48 PM] DarkShadows: You sound like those people who think Reptilians rule the earth, you know that?
[12:29:04 PM] Solomon: -------------------------------33323#$"$#"$#"
[12:29:09 PM] DarkShadows: ...
[12:29:12 PM] DarkShadows: oh what now?
[12:29:31 PM] DarkShadows: *curls up and quietly cries* Why. Why the fuck does this shit have to happen *again*
[12:29:41 PM] DarkShadows: I had a job! I had a fucking life, and now *this shit*.
[12:29:43 PM] DarkShadows: Again.
[12:29:55 PM] Solomon: (X)
[12:30:04 PM] Solomon: (X)(X)(X)
[12:30:06 PM] Solomon: (X)(X)(X)(X)(X)(X)
[12:30:08 PM] DarkShadows: ... oh not you again.
[12:30:14 PM] DarkShadows: Jesus fucking Christ not again
[12:30:20 PM] Solomon: Hello.
[12:30:34 PM] Solomon: Thats.no.way.togreet
[12:30:37 PM] DarkShadows: I thought you left me alone
[12:30:43 PM] Solomon: I.did
[12:30:54 PM] Solomon: Ifelt.likeyouwerein.danger
[12:31:29 PM] DarkShadows: ... I just want this shit to end to be honest. Then Pandora decides, "LOL no, let's fuck the universe up again! Shadows can't have a normal life! What the fuck is NORMAL?!"
[12:32:04 PM] DarkShadows: I'm not doing this again, I can't do this again. As it is my shrink thinks it's a nightmare I had, because I'm a damn good liar.
[12:32:28 PM] DarkShadows: That is what this whole ordeal did to me, made me need to go talk to a *fucking psychotherapist* just to *deal* with half of it.
[12:32:53 PM] DarkShadows: So now that you know the update on what's going on with me, how the fuck do I save the universe, again? I'm a chemist not fucking Rambo.
[12:33:02 PM] Solomon: (hug) There there
[12:33:09 PM] Solomon: dont cry dear
[12:33:15 PM] DarkShadows: I'm just one woman I'm not special...
[12:33:32 PM] DarkShadows: I'm not special. I don't want to be special.
[12:33:38 PM] DarkShadows: I want to be left alone...
[12:33:38 PM] Solomon: You are special
[12:33:40 PM] Solomon: to me
[12:33:43 PM] Solomon: (hug)
[12:34:49 PM] DarkShadows: ... why? Why am I important to anyfuckingone or anyfuckingthing anywhere, I don't want to be important.
[12:34:58 PM] DarkShadows: I want to live a halfway decent, unobtrusive life.
[12:35:13 PM] DarkShadows: I want to believe that science exists and things like... things like what I saw...
[12:35:24 PM] Solomon: I'm trying to make that happen for you dear, I just am one being
[12:35:28 PM] Solomon: I can't work miracles
[12:35:43 PM] DarkShadows: Why do you care about one human being? I;m one of billions.
[12:36:08 PM] DarkShadows: You could probably crush me like an ant and never take notice, why am I so damn important?
[12:36:18 PM] Solomon: (heart) you are special to me, you make me feel ... happy almost.
[12:37:36 PM] DarkShadows: ... okay this isn't happening. I am now convinced I'm dreaming.
[12:37:44 PM] DarkShadows: *pinches self. It doesn't help*.
[12:37:46 PM] DarkShadows: ...
[12:37:55 PM] DarkShadows: There's no way. There's no logical fucking way...
[12:38:37 PM] DarkShadows: That something as... powerful, as incredibly inhumanly powerful as you...
[12:38:57 PM] Solomon: Cant it just be that you make me feel like I'm not such a horrible being, like I have a purpose. You know I do have feelings, you've met them. I feel like you...understand me.
[12:39:14 PM] DarkShadows: ... About as much as I can comprehend...
[12:39:18 PM] DarkShadows: Yes.
[12:39:59 PM] DarkShadows: ... Everything has a purpose... You know that's the one thing that kept me from losing it completely? Believing that there's a reason for all this to happen?
[12:40:12 PM] Solomon: I believe so too
[12:40:18 PM] Solomon: so what is it that I can do for you
[12:40:19 PM] Solomon: my dear
[12:40:43 PM] DarkShadows: ... what can you tell me about something called "God's Wife"?
[12:41:58 PM] Solomon: It's a person chosen by a being most likely the universe or the thing you humans call god. It's a person that basically alters reality at her will.
[12:42:07 PM] Solomon: That's how Pandora became Solomon
[12:42:13 PM] Solomon: God's wife wished so
[12:42:16 PM] Solomon: subconciously
[12:42:31 PM] Solomon: meaning that Pandora knew God's wife, hence why he thought it was you
[12:42:34 PM] Solomon: at first
[12:42:45 PM] DarkShadows: But it's not me. Definatively not me?
[12:43:22 PM] Solomon: Would you ever wish for Pandora to become what he is now?
[12:43:43 PM] Solomon: I doubt it
[12:43:54 PM] Solomon: So I think we can rule you out
[12:44:00 PM] DarkShadows: no. I wouldn't wish something like what's happened on anyone.
[12:44:09 PM] Solomon: [12:43 PM] The Jazz: <<< So I think we can rule you out
[12:45:13 PM] Solomon: I think I know who God's wife is
[12:45:19 PM] Solomon: and its not the girl Solomon mentioned
[12:45:54 PM] DarkShadows: ... who, then?
[12:52:40 PM] Solomon: Willow
[12:53:30 PM] DarkShadows: ... why... why would Willow...
[12:53:46 PM] DarkShadows: Fuck. If it's Willow... we can't kill her. doing that would fuck things up.
[12:53:54 PM] DarkShadows: and that means Pandora is going to kill an innocent girl.
[12:54:06 PM] Solomon: I can absorb her powers
[12:54:15 PM] Solomon: then she's human
[12:54:19 PM] Solomon: then we can
[12:54:23 PM] DarkShadows: ...
[12:54:33 PM] DarkShadows: Yes, you could do that.
[12:54:42 PM] DarkShadows: ... I... don't want people to die, but...
[12:55:01 PM] DarkShadows: ... what must be done. The needs of the many...
[12:55:14 PM] Solomon: She would still live
[12:55:17 PM] Solomon: as a part of me
[12:55:29 PM] Solomon: her powers have her conciousness (sic) inside it
[12:57:00 PM] DarkShadows: ... Do we have absolute proof that she's the one?
[12:57:39 PM] DarkShadows: I'm a scientist, Tall One. I don't do anything without at least some idea that it might or might not work. And I sure as hell don't work without some sort of credible proof or basis for believing something.
[12:58:04 PM] Solomon: I do have proof
[12:58:25 PM] Solomon: The thing is, you weren't one to be born.
[12:58:34 PM] Solomon: Your existence is the proof
[12:58:39 PM] Solomon: she made that happen
[12:58:42 PM] Solomon: by wishing it
[1:01:05 PM] DarkShadows: ...
[1:01:09 PM] DarkShadows: ... I wasn't born.
[1:01:11 PM] DarkShadows: I was...
[1:01:18 PM] DarkShadows: I was just thought up one day, and...
[1:01:27 PM] DarkShadows: ... I'm... I'm not human, then?
[1:01:31 PM] DarkShadows: I'm... I'm a...
[1:01:58 PM] Solomon: closer to being a sentimental
[1:02:26 PM] DarkShadows: ...
[1:02:39 PM] DarkShadows: ... then what exactly am I?
[1:03:15 PM] Solomon: A tulpa
[1:04:27 PM] DarkShadows: ...
[1:04:43 PM] DarkShadows: I could... *soft laugh* I could stop existing in an instant if she willed it...
[1:04:57 PM] DarkShadows: ... I need time. Alone. Now.
[1:05:38 PM] Solomon: ok
[1:05:41 PM] Solomon: I understand
[1:05:44 PM] Solomon: bye
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